We left Pilani at 1030 after some chaos on the issue of the way we would take to get out of the campus.Anyways, the issue was resolved in a jiffy,thanks to TJ(he is not a new character,actually he is our own Thilli).We had to reach Bhangarh by 1800 hours so as to get inside.It was the driver's first trip to Bhangarh too,and he was inquiring about the route after every turn on the way and it reminded us of the movie THE WRONG TURN in which a single wrong turn changed their fate.When we were about to reach,everything seemed quite peculiar.The roads were converging,houses were similar to what they show in horror movies,every child,every woman(that was obvoius),every man staring us as though they wanted to stop us from going further and were the last ones to see us alive.
We reached there at 1815 and it was almost dark then.We were not allowed to enter the fort.We tried to convince the gatekeeper and presented ourselves as surveyors.The gatekeeper enquired about the way we could survey in dark.Venki was not late in replying that it was an Air-survey, and thus did not require much light.Antariksha added to Venki's statement and said that we would manage.But the gatekeeper was not fully convinced.Now it was Thilli's turn to do something.He took the gatekeeper aside,put his arms around his neck and greased his palms.
So finally after giving a bribe of Rs200(now just $4),we could enter the Bhangarh Fort.
To be continued......
Friday, October 10, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Trip to Bhangarh-The Most Haunted Place in India
The EEE and EnI(including EnI by choice) people of my wing(don't underestimate the 'civilite' and mechites) desperately needed this.It was Aggru's idea and there are two reasons he needed it badly:-1)he is the one who reads most number of reference books(2)he is the one who has the entrepreneur spirit and they are the ones who lead.It was quite surprising to see Gupta showing interest in the plan.Rest everything was normal.Vishal's disapproval was also quite expected.B,Thilli,Venki,Lassi showed continued interest.Ashu's approval was also a bit surprising but I must say he has changed a lot.Keep up the spirit,Ashu.Antariksh's 'yes' was also surprizing,though he replied in a manner as though he had never rejected a proposal for anything.
Post dinner session-7th October.We had to leave on 8th morning,so some drastic changes were expected.(1)I was ill and so was out of the plan.(2)The entrepreneur left the company.
Post breakfast session-8th October,8 pm-We had to leave at 10 and some more changes were expected.(1)Gupta backed out,reason-he said he was not comfortable with ghosts.(2)Thilli clean shaved-though he looked the same by the time we reached Bhangarh.Suri too resisted a bit on account of 'Comp-net',but finally decided to join when he was convinced that he would easily make the grade he usually makes.I was feeling qiute better,so I decided to join,though Thilli resisted a bit and prevented me from doing what he does daily:-taking a bath.
So finally 10 including me left for Bhangarh:-Ashu,Thilli,Venki,B,Antariksh,Lassi,Umang,Saket,Suri.
Post dinner session-7th October.We had to leave on 8th morning,so some drastic changes were expected.(1)I was ill and so was out of the plan.(2)The entrepreneur left the company.
Post breakfast session-8th October,8 pm-We had to leave at 10 and some more changes were expected.(1)Gupta backed out,reason-he said he was not comfortable with ghosts.(2)Thilli clean shaved-though he looked the same by the time we reached Bhangarh.Suri too resisted a bit on account of 'Comp-net',but finally decided to join when he was convinced that he would easily make the grade he usually makes.I was feeling qiute better,so I decided to join,though Thilli resisted a bit and prevented me from doing what he does daily:-taking a bath.
So finally 10 including me left for Bhangarh:-Ashu,Thilli,Venki,B,Antariksh,Lassi,Umang,Saket,Suri.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
The Butterfly Effect
There are times when we do something not for the ultimate outcome,but we are more fascinated by the intermediate activities.Days become sine-wave,with unwanted high frequency but the desired positive amplitude being very low.Larry Page and Sergey Brin's work doesn't work in all cases,at least not in my case.It needs improvement,a hell lot of improvement.
Consoling myself on all these issues takes lot of time,I wish I could spend this time doing something else.Sometimes I doubt my kinship with my nearest one and I must say I am ashamed of doing so.If that small(read big)thing is the cause of all these things and what it gives in return is a bit of popularity,I don't need that.I am no longer selfish and I no longer envious.I wish I regain both my magical powers soon.I don't regret anything and I do regret the which don't require it.Priorities have changed and so has everything.Music has become an addiction.The upper limit of sitting for a work in one go is 10 secs and I am afraid,this too is an exaggeration.
A true lively example of a very long term effect.
Consoling myself on all these issues takes lot of time,I wish I could spend this time doing something else.Sometimes I doubt my kinship with my nearest one and I must say I am ashamed of doing so.If that small(read big)thing is the cause of all these things and what it gives in return is a bit of popularity,I don't need that.I am no longer selfish and I no longer envious.I wish I regain both my magical powers soon.I don't regret anything and I do regret the which don't require it.Priorities have changed and so has everything.Music has become an addiction.The upper limit of sitting for a work in one go is 10 secs and I am afraid,this too is an exaggeration.
A true lively example of a very long term effect.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
When one neither has reasons to be happy nor to be sad,why do some people prefer the latter option????Or they just pretend to be so,just to gain other's attention.It was the first time I ignored my nescience and the worst part was that I shamelessly accepted it.The worst thing in life is to get back a loan and that too without interest.
But I am happy I have not reached the extremes.And I am sympathetic for people who reach the same.
But I am happy I have not reached the extremes.And I am sympathetic for people who reach the same.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Excess of anything is really bad
I heard this proverb long ago but I didn't know it applies to anything and everything,happiness being no exception.Its unbelievable.Probably there is a flaw in my definition of happiness.
I was told that dreams come true only after long distances are covered on paths full of thorns,but it is followed by roses.
But I walked on a path which has alternate roses and thorns and the latter outnumbered the former and the roses were made of paper.The path gave me several deaths.
Probably I am dreaming.
I was told that dreams come true only after long distances are covered on paths full of thorns,but it is followed by roses.
But I walked on a path which has alternate roses and thorns and the latter outnumbered the former and the roses were made of paper.The path gave me several deaths.
Probably I am dreaming.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Its raining in Pilani and I am serious
Some extraterrestrial forces seem to be working out here in Pilani leading to occurence of things that have never taken place before.
Although I am not a pessimist,it is a fact that the time never remains same and that too in a situation when it is already indicating its retirement in its peak phase:(:(
Although I am not a pessimist,it is a fact that the time never remains same and that too in a situation when it is already indicating its retirement in its peak phase:(:(
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Why does one laugh when extremely frustrsted
There was a time when i couldn't dare even to think,but I didn't know there are people who can beat me even in this.Hats off for them.That happiness,those joyous moments,everything gone in just a click.Thanks.But no problem,I have other reasons to be happy.At least a bit of 'Environment Impact Assessment ' can be done.
There are Spoken English institutes in India,some people need them badly.
The ice broke and melted,but the temperature again reached -100 degree celsius.No worries, summer is not far away.
Charles Darwin was very correct when he discovered the theory of 'Survival of the Fittest'.
I have to go,and run the race of becoming the fittest.
There are Spoken English institutes in India,some people need them badly.
The ice broke and melted,but the temperature again reached -100 degree celsius.No worries, summer is not far away.
Charles Darwin was very correct when he discovered the theory of 'Survival of the Fittest'.
I have to go,and run the race of becoming the fittest.
Monday, July 7, 2008
The opportunity finally grabbed
A day as normal as any other day in Goa.In fact,I woke up a little late,performed all the necessary tasks faster.The same daily monotonous routine,that same classroom for some time,then some work in the Modernization department,same pathetic lunch.Again some time in the classroom followed by a 15 minute walk on the same roads to spend some time at the same old 'Temptations',for just a new 'grilled sandwich'(this was the only thing new till 1630).But my horoscope indicated something new and much bigger was waiting.
It all started after rejecting Ashu's football plan and Gupta and Abpa's call for 'Jhopdi'.Abpa was clever at identifying my frustrations when I just started to throw stones at nothing.Then started the conversation that created magic(although it was almost one-sided).After 2 hours at 'Jhopdi' and another 1 outside the cafe,things improved a lot(or it became worse for me,I lost my hunger and had several natural calls).
And finally it was a call by mistake that gave me the strength.My strength that time was my normal guts^my age(although 20 rounds from 'AH2 common room to the road to the institute' completely opposes this).The chronological order of the things reversed, but finally everything was done,which is more important.
Probably, a happy ending.
It all started after rejecting Ashu's football plan and Gupta and Abpa's call for 'Jhopdi'.Abpa was clever at identifying my frustrations when I just started to throw stones at nothing.Then started the conversation that created magic(although it was almost one-sided).After 2 hours at 'Jhopdi' and another 1 outside the cafe,things improved a lot(or it became worse for me,I lost my hunger and had several natural calls).
And finally it was a call by mistake that gave me the strength.My strength that time was my normal guts^my age(although 20 rounds from 'AH2 common room to the road to the institute' completely opposes this).The chronological order of the things reversed, but finally everything was done,which is more important.
Probably, a happy ending.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
There is always a first time for everything in life
Does sharing silence really mean that two people are good friends??
I didn't know prestige was more important for me than money and power.16% is not small,but it depends a lot on the part which is under consideration.The end 16% seem too small and the initial 16% passes by without much trouble.
Was that status message thing just a mere coincidence or did it really imply co-relation empowered by destiny.Is it that my association(too heavy for now) with it attracts people to me?If this is the case,let these people play their own games.I am happy that one person is unaware of this and when that person comes to know this,probably he/she will be delighted.:):):)
I didn't know prestige was more important for me than money and power.16% is not small,but it depends a lot on the part which is under consideration.The end 16% seem too small and the initial 16% passes by without much trouble.
Was that status message thing just a mere coincidence or did it really imply co-relation empowered by destiny.Is it that my association(too heavy for now) with it attracts people to me?If this is the case,let these people play their own games.I am happy that one person is unaware of this and when that person comes to know this,probably he/she will be delighted.:):):)
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Friday, June 6, 2008
Engineering
As the results of IIT,AIEEE and and of course BITSAT(the only engineering entrance examination in INDIA which gives on the spot scores) are out,people have started inquiring about the cut-offs for various branches and colleges.Although students with very good ranks do not waste their time in inquiring about other colleges,students with a mediocre rank in JEE are the most confused,I suppose.They can't decide whether to go for the brand-name IIT or for their penchant branch,in any other college.Is it better not to be selected for IIT than getting an under 2500 rank?
Mohit called me and quickly briefed me all the options he had.He expected me to suggest him the best of the options in one go.How could I do that?Means there should be some basis.His interests,his passions,his life and he wanted me to direct it.I told him,I needed to talk to him.By the way,how would a 17 year old know,what to go for in an engineering college.Its a tough decision.Even I,after being surrounded by engineers and to-be-engineers for two long years and after studying some courses of all the disciplines,if given a choice to select an engineering stream,would be a difficult task for me.But atleast,I know what I can do and makes me sleep.And here comes the solution.
Mohit's BITSAT score is 265,4100+ in AIEEE.I had to suggest him something.I discussed the situation with my friends.It was a good discussion,outside the cafeteria,with cool breeze blowing and nobody feeling the bite of mozzies(mosquitoes,recently completed reading Chetan Bhagat's third book) as everybody was so involved in the discussion.Some of us argued that following the trend was the best option.But I was totally against the system.According to me,trend follows placement and should one go for a discipline because it pays you the highest.Should a top scorer in BITSAT go for Computer Science just because it has the best placement stats.What if he gets screwed up writing C-codes and even gets stuck-up with the hardware.Then scoring a 10 and making a transfer is the only solution,which remains a dream for most.
I had a soluton,though it surely needs amendments.The first year of the engineering program should cover two courses from every discipline and then based on the performance in those courses and the preferences of the students,branches should be alloted to the students.Secondly,colleges should stop disclosing their placement stats.This will help the students a lot.
Mohit called me and quickly briefed me all the options he had.He expected me to suggest him the best of the options in one go.How could I do that?Means there should be some basis.His interests,his passions,his life and he wanted me to direct it.I told him,I needed to talk to him.By the way,how would a 17 year old know,what to go for in an engineering college.Its a tough decision.Even I,after being surrounded by engineers and to-be-engineers for two long years and after studying some courses of all the disciplines,if given a choice to select an engineering stream,would be a difficult task for me.But atleast,I know what I can do and makes me sleep.And here comes the solution.
Mohit's BITSAT score is 265,4100+ in AIEEE.I had to suggest him something.I discussed the situation with my friends.It was a good discussion,outside the cafeteria,with cool breeze blowing and nobody feeling the bite of mozzies(mosquitoes,recently completed reading Chetan Bhagat's third book) as everybody was so involved in the discussion.Some of us argued that following the trend was the best option.But I was totally against the system.According to me,trend follows placement and should one go for a discipline because it pays you the highest.Should a top scorer in BITSAT go for Computer Science just because it has the best placement stats.What if he gets screwed up writing C-codes and even gets stuck-up with the hardware.Then scoring a 10 and making a transfer is the only solution,which remains a dream for most.
I had a soluton,though it surely needs amendments.The first year of the engineering program should cover two courses from every discipline and then based on the performance in those courses and the preferences of the students,branches should be alloted to the students.Secondly,colleges should stop disclosing their placement stats.This will help the students a lot.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Sisters are closer to their brothers,or I feel so for self solace.
Taking something from someone I expected from someone else.It's Goa's birthday-should I celebrate or the flag is still to be hosted?The first two levels are cleared but the the feather is still missing from the cap.
Settling with the mediocre or waiting for the best-both are risky.
People have started visiting me and that too just,just for me or I still fear negligence?
Have i become possessive??The fire needs to be spread.
'Excess of everything is bad'.
Taking something from someone I expected from someone else.It's Goa's birthday-should I celebrate or the flag is still to be hosted?The first two levels are cleared but the the feather is still missing from the cap.
Settling with the mediocre or waiting for the best-both are risky.
People have started visiting me and that too just,just for me or I still fear negligence?
Have i become possessive??The fire needs to be spread.
'Excess of everything is bad'.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Successfully Unsuccessful
Shampooing in the wash basin, trying to smile without showing teeth,getting up early for no reason,waiting for THAT day thirstily,glad to hear Mr.Deshpandey's decision(Manager,HRD(Goa Shipyard Limited),enthusiastically becoming a debtor,wanting to walk behind that,eagerly waiting for a chance to help that,breaking that promise(blocking the way of fulfilling the promise),sometimes feeling elevated,sometimes pressed down,conversing more and finding opportunities for even more.Thinking more and more on issues,making a plan and avoiding it.Feeling the self-importance when one puts hand around the neck and then just a click of that-and every feeling suppresses-a week with mixed feelings.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Joy and sorrow
Joy and sorrow-the two states of mind ,are a fact of life.According to me, one of these states always occupies a person's mind.A person can't claim to have a mixed state of mind in this context.Even if he has reasons for both, one of them dominates the other and the state of the mind shapes accordingly.
The body wants happiness in its own selfish way but the mind interferes and prevents it from doing so.But the body is helpless.After a small success(didn't find a smaller word for it),the body again asks for it and this time,the mind too supports it. But the heart comes and reminds it of the next task.The mind and the body obey it like a well paid servant.And the cycle goes on after a restart.
People say that sorrow dominates happiness irrespective of their magnitude,until the difference is very large .But sometimes its difficult to gauge their magnitude,even relatively and they may be time dependent.What seems a small sorrow now, may turn big and a similarly a small happiness may turn miniature.Now the time dominates.
The body wants happiness in its own selfish way but the mind interferes and prevents it from doing so.But the body is helpless.After a small success(didn't find a smaller word for it),the body again asks for it and this time,the mind too supports it. But the heart comes and reminds it of the next task.The mind and the body obey it like a well paid servant.And the cycle goes on after a restart.
People say that sorrow dominates happiness irrespective of their magnitude,until the difference is very large .But sometimes its difficult to gauge their magnitude,even relatively and they may be time dependent.What seems a small sorrow now, may turn big and a similarly a small happiness may turn miniature.Now the time dominates.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Life at Kota-1
I was inclined towards 'something more interesting' just before my 10th boards,probably the only reason of my ordinary results in the same,otherwise I was a very good student.My parents were concerned about my involvement in that other 'more interesting thing'.The 'other more interesting' was not what everybody gets into at that age,specially in a co-ed school.Actually I was getting closer to 'money'.And my parents didn't want me to associate with money so intensely at that time.
I was very good at mathematics,so I decided to take up science.I had very close friends at school.Three of us decided to go to 'Kota' for IIT-JEE coaching.(Kota has the best coaching institutes in the country.)So we decided to take up admission tests for two of the best instiutes of Kota,Resonance and Bansal.We decided to take up the tests in Kota so that we could explore a bit of the city we are going to spend two years of our lives.It was fun then.We went there with our parents.
It was a completely different city.Almost everything in the city was targeted towards students.Every house had a 'TO LET FOR STUDENTS' board.There was a coaching institute in every road of the city,a mess after every 10 houses.That time I realized how big IIT-JEE was,after I saw the whole city involved in it.The city was an accomodation for 2 lac students,who were the only source of income for a majority of people living there.
The results were out. All three of us cleared the test for one of the institutes but we were unhappy for being rejected for the other,which was more popular and had more fame.But we were happy for one reason,we would be living together.
So we began our journey for a very challenging life.I was accompanied by my parents.The train journey was a pleasant one because till then,I could not realize the feeling of living away from my parents.I was normal at the time my parents left Kota.
We started with our classes.I had no problems till one weak after which I could not control my emotions.I was not able to eat anything nor concentrate on studies.I badly wanted to go home.I was feeling helpless.
I called up home and started crying. I told my parents that I won't be able to live there and I was coming back by the next train.:(:(:(:(:(:(
I was very good at mathematics,so I decided to take up science.I had very close friends at school.Three of us decided to go to 'Kota' for IIT-JEE coaching.(Kota has the best coaching institutes in the country.)So we decided to take up admission tests for two of the best instiutes of Kota,Resonance and Bansal.We decided to take up the tests in Kota so that we could explore a bit of the city we are going to spend two years of our lives.It was fun then.We went there with our parents.
It was a completely different city.Almost everything in the city was targeted towards students.Every house had a 'TO LET FOR STUDENTS' board.There was a coaching institute in every road of the city,a mess after every 10 houses.That time I realized how big IIT-JEE was,after I saw the whole city involved in it.The city was an accomodation for 2 lac students,who were the only source of income for a majority of people living there.
The results were out. All three of us cleared the test for one of the institutes but we were unhappy for being rejected for the other,which was more popular and had more fame.But we were happy for one reason,we would be living together.
So we began our journey for a very challenging life.I was accompanied by my parents.The train journey was a pleasant one because till then,I could not realize the feeling of living away from my parents.I was normal at the time my parents left Kota.
We started with our classes.I had no problems till one weak after which I could not control my emotions.I was not able to eat anything nor concentrate on studies.I badly wanted to go home.I was feeling helpless.
I called up home and started crying. I told my parents that I won't be able to live there and I was coming back by the next train.:(:(:(:(:(:(
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
proud of my school
In our early schooldays,we were taught and forced to wish every teacher who entered the class.The teacher used to go back and come in again in case the we didn't wish him/her.It was not that he/she expected great respect and was hungry for it, but it was only an attempt to teach us the value of respecting the ones,if not better and superior than us but atleast older than us,the ones who have seen more world than us and have more experiences than us.
I proudly said "NAZARETH ACADEMY" when one of my professors asked me my school's name.Actually I was the only student to wish him as he entered the class.There were around 40 others in the class.He was so touched that he declared my school better than atleast the schools of all the others sitting in the class.He asked me the details of my school.I proudly replied ,"Its a missionary school runned by sisters who have dedicated their lives for the betterment of others".He became so emotional that he almost forgot an important assignment to be done in that class.It was only after 20 minutes and after talking a lot about 'values' ,that he proceeded the class.
It started as a funny activity.During our initial schooldays we eagerly waited for the next class to begin and a new teacher to enter. The whole class together shouted"Goood moorniiingg maaam/siir."It was real fun.The teacher entered the class with a smile on his face.But the time doesn't remain same.Its now probably not in fashion to greet teachers,or its the superiority feeling that prevents us from doing so.
Still not sure of the actual reason for such a modification in our behaviour ,it gives an inner happiness when a teacher responses with a smile.
I proudly said "NAZARETH ACADEMY" when one of my professors asked me my school's name.Actually I was the only student to wish him as he entered the class.There were around 40 others in the class.He was so touched that he declared my school better than atleast the schools of all the others sitting in the class.He asked me the details of my school.I proudly replied ,"Its a missionary school runned by sisters who have dedicated their lives for the betterment of others".He became so emotional that he almost forgot an important assignment to be done in that class.It was only after 20 minutes and after talking a lot about 'values' ,that he proceeded the class.
It started as a funny activity.During our initial schooldays we eagerly waited for the next class to begin and a new teacher to enter. The whole class together shouted"Goood moorniiingg maaam/siir."It was real fun.The teacher entered the class with a smile on his face.But the time doesn't remain same.Its now probably not in fashion to greet teachers,or its the superiority feeling that prevents us from doing so.
Still not sure of the actual reason for such a modification in our behaviour ,it gives an inner happiness when a teacher responses with a smile.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
my last vacation
Regular nightouts for the endsem examinations(compree in bitsian lingo) had taken life out of me.Leaving pilani for home was the most delightful thing for me at that moment.I went directly to indore which is not the place i used to go during my past vacations.Actually my parents didn't want me to come all the way to gaya (my home town) and then travel back to indore from where we had planned a tour to badrinath-kedarnath.My train was scheduled to reach indore just 1/2 an hour before my parents's,hoping to meet them on the station. My cousin,who came to pick me up told that their train was 2 hours late .But waiting that long for my parents was a difficult task for me.
We were quite enthusiastic for the trip as this was the first time all four children were going(my sis,two of my cousins and me).Otherwise we children ,engaged in tests and exams have to miss these memorable family trips.
We had to wait at the nizammuddin railway station for our train after reaching delhi.We had a nice dinner at the cumsum restaurant,which is a part of the indian railways, that reminded me of LALU PRASAD YADAV lecturing harvard and wharton undergraduates on turnaround of indian railways.
We boarded the train and almost settled until we were informed that we were 'promoted' to ac-2 from ac-3 as an award for being the first ones to book our tickets , according to the new policies of the indian railways.The situation resembled a teacher bestowing a student for his good performance.
We took a bus for the rest of our trip and my mind was preoccupied with the mountains all along the way. Kedarnath was the first place we visited and the temperature there clearly warned us of the extent of it we were going to encounter during the rest of our journey.Although the days were much more comfortable.
But irrespective of the cold,we moved towards the main temple with full vigour which reached newer heights as we neared the temple.
Freezing river was a common scene during our tour.We could not afford to miss the thrills of river-rafting which was a life-time experience. Finally the day had come when we had to depart,everyone failing in trying to suppress the woes on their face,avoiding talks with one another.
tears........
We were quite enthusiastic for the trip as this was the first time all four children were going(my sis,two of my cousins and me).Otherwise we children ,engaged in tests and exams have to miss these memorable family trips.
We had to wait at the nizammuddin railway station for our train after reaching delhi.We had a nice dinner at the cumsum restaurant,which is a part of the indian railways, that reminded me of LALU PRASAD YADAV lecturing harvard and wharton undergraduates on turnaround of indian railways.
We boarded the train and almost settled until we were informed that we were 'promoted' to ac-2 from ac-3 as an award for being the first ones to book our tickets , according to the new policies of the indian railways.The situation resembled a teacher bestowing a student for his good performance.
We took a bus for the rest of our trip and my mind was preoccupied with the mountains all along the way. Kedarnath was the first place we visited and the temperature there clearly warned us of the extent of it we were going to encounter during the rest of our journey.Although the days were much more comfortable.
But irrespective of the cold,we moved towards the main temple with full vigour which reached newer heights as we neared the temple.
Freezing river was a common scene during our tour.We could not afford to miss the thrills of river-rafting which was a life-time experience. Finally the day had come when we had to depart,everyone failing in trying to suppress the woes on their face,avoiding talks with one another.
tears........
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